Believe It!

All of my life, like most people, I have desired many things but mostly I have desired love and acceptance, I just didn’t know it. There were times, like when I was a teenager that I fit right in, was accepted by my peers, and usually led the pack. The problem is that I was leading everyone straight in to a dead end, unintentionally.

You see I never would intentionally hurt anyone or lead them astray, but I did. It is funny how we can be so lost, think we have it together, and lead everyone else down the long and winding road that leads to nowhere. As much as I was a leader, I had no voice. I am not even sure how that happens really.

I could never trust myself so when I would hear that small little whisper or feel the answer in the pit of my stomach, all it would take is someone telling me “that is wrong”, or “do it this way”, and I would ignore my own instinct, which in hindsight was usually trying to lead me in to some positive or forward motion, and thus I would be led astray and lead others astray.

It has taken me many years of heart ache, heart break and unimaginable pain and trauma to even see this now. And that is why I am sharing it with you. Maybe by sharing it, you can look at your own life, see if there is anything you can relate to and seek now to get out of the insanity of doing the same thing over and over, always expecting different results. Get on the right track now, learn to love yourself. That is what was missing my whole life, self-love, I just didn’t know it. How can we love anyone if we don’t love ourselves? By loving ourselves we can also trust ourselves and obey that inner voice, which is God leading us.

I know where and how mine began, it was coming from a home where no one loved or valued me much less tried to teach me anything, where no one even saw me, where I was invisible. As a result, I spent most of my life trying so hard to fit in places where it was not meant to be and when I felt rejected, I usually, unknowingly, harmed myself. Do you come from a similar background? If you do, please do something about it now. Get a therapist, or at a minimum begin reading up on co-dependency and see if you can relate.

Melody Beattie has several great books out on co-dependency. That is where I began, along with a therapist. Once I began to heal, I started to believe what the Bible says, what God says in Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.

There is a plan for every one of us so believe it, and believe it now so you can stop the suffering; it feels so much better on the flip side. God Bless!!

BELIEVE IT!!!